Too low, Too far, Too deep.

[sugar_geisha]

I feel like shit. I felt like shit when I woke up, you know that low, gnawing feeling in your tummy. Well that's how I felt. I was trying to decide whether to fast or restrict today. It was too hard a decision to make. I didn't even want to get dressed but I thought I could get a Starbucks while I made up my mind. So I forced myself into some

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[a_cl0ckw0rk_red]

Ouch, I'm sure he didn't mean it like that :/ You are still incredibly thin, but you just look healthier you know? Rather than looking, I don't know, gaunt. What he said was harmless, the point is, he was trying to compliment you and obviously didn't realise you would find it hurtful. Please don't let it weigh on your mind.. (ugh, really that was no pun intended -_- ) You're gorgeous Eve, it wouldn't matter at all how much you lost or put on. x

[__goldberry__]

Oh my God that is so awful. I actually said "Oh no" out loud in my kitchen. I just read it to Kane because he understands how bad that kind of thing is and his brother, who was listening, said "they were probably just trying to help". Not that that makes any difference.

I for one don't see any difference in you. A lot of the weight we put on is in our organs and muscles so you weigh more but to the average person you don't actually look particularly different. And sometimes it's just the skin colour and better posture you get from regaining muscle and organ mass that makes you look "healthier" (and therefore bigger) to outside eyes.

All I can say is, tomorrow's another day :-]

[sugar_geisha]

I cant even remember what weight I was last time I saw him but I def wasnt more than 5 lbs heavier because Im at a high weight for me. Its just weirder because I have been doing more ballet and am more toned than I was when I was at this weight last time so technically Im smaller. I wish I could put it down to wearing more clothes because I was cold but he said "in your face" more weight in my face??? I tend to lose it there first! Im trying to convince myself its because my hair is shorter and so my face looks less swamped, my hair was black then too so my face looked more gaunt I guess?? Justifications....