I don't think I even know how much I miss you, even though I try so hard to forget. I still think about you more than I want to. I wonder how you are, where you are, and everything else in between. Am I completely over you? No...and I imagine that no matter what happened, that you still love me, like I still love you. It's so hard to move on. I ( Read more... )

I've been doing okay lately. A little bland like a rice cake, but functional nonetheless ( Read more... )

Three entries in one day...That's a first. I guess I feel the I need to publically air myself cause I want the two people I care about to know what I have come to realize. I hope at least one of you are reading this ( Read more... )

I hate waking up in the morning, cause my head is completely clear and hope is completely absent. It doesn't help that my pillow and blankets still smell like you. One day I'll have to wash them. When will I get used to it and familiarize myself with the word "lonely"? All my life I've tried to stay tough but my "fuck you" attitude doesn't seem to ( Read more... )

It has certainly been a long time coming. It's strange how memories are so strong and weak at the same time but I'll do my best to remember them and the feelings connected with them. After all, it's all I have.

When it all started, I never expected that you would play such a role in my life. My first love. My first. My first heartbreak. My first ( Read more... )

I wish I could stop crying. I wish this never happened. Not yesterday. I don't want anyone and I don't want to try anymore. I'm going to go to work and go home and sleep and then wake up and do the same thing over and over and over again. I'm dead and it's worse then any weapon or any act of carelessness could do. I woke up this morning and ( Read more... )

Can it be spring already? This cold shit is getting old. Damn. All I've been listening to lately is Sade. Very romantic, lol ( Read more... )

I finally got fast internet. I was probably the last person on the planet still using dial up. I hooked it up myself. Fuck paying a jerk to do it. I'm independent ( Read more... )

I love it when people open up to me. I love it when you open up to me. I fell in love all over again.

Alisha

Today someone told me the most meaningful thing I ever heard in my life. That I was their miracle, that I helped them open up and that I was their lifeline. When I heard this, I had no words to explain the feeling I had, only tears. Tears I've never shed before. Those words put so much meaning in my life in that instant. Who would've known that two ( Read more... )