man i wish things werent so blah im so confused my head is everywhere right now and i dont know what to do im so lost and scared and i just want to hear a voice

i lost it all in the sound of a heartbeat

SO DOUGIE GOT ME A HEW PUPPY!!! HES SO CUTE HES A LITTLE BEAGLE AND HES ONLY 9 WEEKS OLD. WE NAMED HIM ZERO AND BELIVE IT OR NOT IT ISNT FROM THE NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS. HE WANTED IT BECAUSE THAT IS THE NAME OF THE ENGINE IN HIS CAR BUT I THOUGHT IT ROCKED. I DONT WANT TO GO TO WORK SOMEONE HIRE ME FOR A FUN JOB ONE THAT DOESNT SUCK

today i did something that i havent done in about 11 years. today i talked to my grandmother. we talked a bit about my dad. it was hard. i miss him. she told me she loved me. my toes are so cold but my body has such a warm tingle its indiscribable. i havent felt so content with myself in ages. i want to go back to chicago.

im in orlando. its fun. ryan is yelling at the computer. i am using punctuation, cause ryan sucks. math also sucks. doug is reading this too. doug is a big poopyhead. :)

sometimes i wonder if i fell off the face of the earth if anyone would ever even notice?

to those people
you know who you are
i love you
i miss you

wow, so its been more than a month since i last updated and no i am not dead its just been hell around here. i am up for the third key position at work which is like a step below assistant manager but its better pay than employee. my mother got married to bill during francice on sunday and is now in the bahamas at atlantis. my birthday is monday ( Read more... )

so yeah i went to bj's last little party thingy last night. it was fun. im still clean dont worry ;) but i wanted to see him before he went to orlando to fullsail. i got one of his newer cd's but only one. i hung out with jason. good times. :). i have to work like 14 days in a row but then i get to have some time off. my mom wants me to go dress ( Read more... )

One by one, it stings my eyes ( Read more... )