there are so many things that i am afraid of. and they are preventing me from doing what i really want. and that is bullshit. so here's to being fearlessssssssss wahoooooooooo ( Read more... )

sorry about my last entry, i wrote it during a psychotic episode i think. i kind of went crazy the other night. but now that i got that out of the way, things don't seem so bad anymore. but they don't really seem great either. i'm just sooooooooo bored. with everything in my life. but it's all good, i'm going to boston soon and this weekend i'm ( Read more... )

i feel ridiculously unsatisfied. and i decided that unsatisfaction is what fucks me up the most. and it sucks because i know what would really make it all go away, but it's something i can't really do anything about. i'm just like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i need something to fill me up because i continually feel empty. it wasn't really like this a month ago ( Read more... )

i love it when my room is really messy and i have to throw my clothes off my bed before i go to sleep and then i have to figure out my covers before i can sleep......it's so snuggly and warm ( Read more... )

the weather is beautiful and autumnlicious. i loooove it how when you wake up it's cold but there's something in the air that makes it wonderful. i'm so excited for jackets and huge leaf piles and windy days and just fall ( Read more... )

ahhhhhhh i am going crazzzzzzzzzzzy. see there is this thing that i really want to do. but i'm too scared. but i really wanna! and i don't know what to do ( Read more... )

the red hot chili peppers are my favorite band again. officially. and just on a side note, for the past month i have been thinking about anthony kiedis so much. he is so fucking sexy like none other. and his voice omg his voice. it fucking makes me melt. ahhh it's driving me crazy! i've also decided to rediscover STP.

i need something to push me ( Read more... )

i realized that like all of my recent entries have been kinda depressing.

but i'm making a conscious decision to be happpppppy!!!!!!!!!!!

so yay! and also i got a new cell phone! and it's a camera phone! and it's fucking awesome as shit! please don't think that i'm only happy because of my phone. that would be lame.

i don't really know why i'm updating. i'm sort of fallen into this pattern of updating every 2 days, so now i feel obligated although i don't have much to say. this week has been really hard and i've done a lot of shitty things to myself. but i'm ending that. i'm just so tired and this morning something happened where suddenly i remembered oh my ( Read more... )