i know i said i was taking a break but i just have to do this one update ( Read more... )

it's so weird how i can go from feeling content with how i look to thinking that i'm disgusting or fat or ugly or whatever. actually i dont ever feel gross or fat anymore but it's just like everyday i have to wake up and tell myself that i'm not. and also, beauty's been such a big deal in my life. like what makes a person beautiful, how i see ( Read more... )

i feel so good right now! i think i'm improving my voice as my songwriting improves, or maybe i'm just trying harder. but today i actually picked up nate's guitar and just started fucking around. i'm excited about my rediscovery of songwriting and even more excited that now that i'm not 12 anymore, my lyrics aren't as horrible. it's hard for me to ( Read more... )

i'm coming home today! anyways i definetly wanna see people because while i was in nantucket i didn't even really talk to anyone besides a few lj comments. so basically, i feel like i fell off the face of the earth and i want to come back. all in all this was a really great trip, except for me getting sick and having to deal with the G-Ma. i'm ( Read more... )

ok i have the story to top all stories!!!! so i was at the beach with nathaniel and brad and those 4 little kids i love and their mom and their babysitter. we were at this beach called jetties which is one of my favorite ones. soooo around like 4 in the afternooon, these two women and 2 kids come and put their stuff right by ours. and one of the ( Read more... )

im sick and it sucks. i have some type of stomach virus or bug. either that, or my stomach is just being fucked up because i haven't been able to eat as many whole foods since i'm away from home. i don't know but it really sucks because for the past 2 days my stomach has been in so much pain. and i dont like being sick on vacation ( Read more... )

nannnnntucketttttt. anyways, i'm still having fun blah blah blah. i never post songs because i don't know, i just don't. but i'm gonna post a song. because right now it's my favorite. it's by jewel who i decided is the most talented person on the face of the earth. and i'm determined to start writing songs as smart as hers without being a total ( Read more... )

i forgot 2 reasons: there are no chain stores on the entire island excpet for one radioshack. just one!! no mcdonalds, burgerking, starbucks, whatever. ok and the other thing is that there's an outdoor shower on the house and omg its fucking awesome. there are 4 wooden walls but the top is open and the other morning i was showering and the sun was ( Read more... )

so i'm here in nantucket. and i'm having mucho amounts of fun with nathaniel and my cousin brad. we are all retarded and it's just lots of good times. i'm sort of brain dead right now, but it's all good. i'm reading this book called Bel Canto and it's seriously the most beautifully written book i've ever read. amazing, everyone should read it. i'm ( Read more... )

i'm sad. i was just packing and all of a sudden i just got really really sad. i don't really get why though. i think it's sorta because my life is really changing. i sorta feel how i felt around graduation, where i was just all emotional and retarded. it's not weird now, but it's gonna be so weird when school starts. i think i'm realizing this now ( Read more... )