p.s.
im sorry about all the long winded venting journals. i feel much better now. ive just given up trying. thank you.

you called- didnt care ( Read more... )

stupid life.
stupid court.
stupid money.
stupid bootcamp.
stupid me.

when will all this bullshit be over. i just want to be happy again.
seriously.

im staying this week at my moms house to keep her company while me dads in germany.
between probation and work and probation. im so screwed/
kill me.
i hope this week relaxes me. i miss my family so this should do some good.
*crosses fingers*
Some one take me to the cider mill. or come with me.
i no longer care who.

yes, im still alive.

the end

my heart is still breaking.....what the heck is wrong with me.
i think im going to cry forever.

i give up. period.

So when this first ended, you were positive you would want me back. I wonder where you stand on that now. It used to be the only thing that kept me smiling. Was thinking that you and i would be together again. But im not sure i even should get back together with you. everyone says im better off, though ive never listened to anyone elses opinion of ( Read more... )

no, i am smiling.

It's like you're a drug ( Read more... )