So far, I haven't found out what's going on between Tom and myself. It's tearing me apart, but I darent ask him once more because I think I've pushed him far enough. He told me once Thursday is out of the way, and all this crap with his uni is sorted, he'll have a clear head and will be able to tell me what he wants. Right now I'm being pretty calm ( Read more... )

"And I don't need something that hurts more than nothing ( Read more... )

Today has been a uphill struggle in more than one way. I am emotionally exhausted by myself. I'm feeling pretty low.

It's far too hot, and I have been a total bitch these past few days. There are reasons for my behaviour, but no excuses for the way I've been treating Tom. Im quite surprised that he's still bothering with me. Pleased, but surprised. I guess I'm still in denial that he actually does want to be with me...SOMEBODY BEAT IT INTO ME! I'm so sick of not ( Read more... )

And so I've fucked it up. As I knew I would.

I'm aware that I'm updating this an awful lot. It's because I'm bored to tears being ill. I did go into work today for a whole hour, before the shakes set in and the sickness. I feel really guilty about being off though, cause Mrs.Mohammed is off as well on account of her blood sugar levels being crazy. I'll make it up to them tomorrow though. I'll ( Read more... )

Why is it I tend to always think someone else assumes the worst of me? Is it because that's what I've been led to believe is true about myself ( Read more... )

Good day again today. Very good day. I'm still smiling. There was a minor fall out, but nothing that couldn't be sorted out in the best way possible. I'm stupidly happy.

I like green eyes. Green eyes are damned sexy.

Whoever (or should that be whom?!) came up with the cold showers theory is a liar.

It's the morning after Mantra, and I've had about 6 hours sleep, if that. I had THE best time, and will be going back time and time again. First things first- I got tattooed by Jo Harrison! Awesome. She's gorgeous and a complete sweetheart. She only charged me for an hour for a piece that took 2, and I felt really bad! But, I'm gonna go up there ( Read more... )

I am so confused right now ( Read more... )