I dont think i have ever gotten such spontaneous chills in a cinema theater before, just by watching the opening credits of a movie. Yesterday was a beginning of an end of an era, and i wept. i realize that i want that kind of friendship, and i already, blessedly, have it. i want that kind of magic, and i have it, it's all in my head & wrapped up ( Read more... )

you need to listen really hard when the wind tries to tell you something, because usually, it is something worth listening out for.

for example, it may tell you to shut the windows before the rain comes in. or to warn everyone else that a hurricane is on the way. but most of the time, i heard it whispering and yowling in turns; telling me to live as ( Read more... )

my heart reaches out for things that i cannot have.

EXCITING THINGS ARE HAPPENING. :D i just cant be bothered to elaborate.

but to me; it means the world of difference.

some people walk in the rain; others just get wet. -Roger Miller
i contemplated it today, but i decided no. i would not put my faith in film;  i cannot capture rain. the sleets and sheets of it; imprints in the air, the pattern and sound of it as it hits the pavement; the feel of it as it is blown across ( Read more... )

the shirt said: i love you... more than a friend.
she said: guys have become so dense now that we have to spell it out on our shirts.
this world is sad.

i (finally) did some research on university courses for local unis.
i realise that there doesnt seem to be a university which allows me to choose interesting minor courses like Archaeology  which would validate my desire to go to a carribbean island and dig for pirate gold.
you see, when i grow up and little kids ask me what do i work as, i want to ( Read more... )

i used to run away.

Today, i sat next to a suspicious character on the bus. he said into the phone, in an undertone, 'the transfer has been made. give me thirty.'  30k as in dollars as in thirty thousand dollars? 30 grams (or kilograms? that's enough to fill the veins of 300people for 3years. or more.) of heroine? 30 packets of contraband ciggys? 30 rare butterfly ( Read more... )

i miss having purpose to my life. this is not to say i miss studying. i dont. but i miss having an objective, having daily routines, having the guarantee that i will see a specific group of friends every day in the void deck. and oh boy, i miss some friends so much.

but that aside, after a levels has been a ball. i havent felt so drained / ( Read more... )