i used to be the ideal child.. i cooked, cleaned, got ok grades.. now im a fucking outcast in my own home.. they act like im such a bad kid.. i havnt drank or done anything like that in SO long.. all i did was date a black guy.. and phill isnt even a bad guy ( Read more... )

so i wrote this new hugeeeeeee lj entry the other nite n guess what!? IT DIDNT SAVE!!!

it was all about how my dad hates me cuz of phill n all this shit.. he said im a selfish bitch n im ruining our relationship.. yea ok.. he can kiss my ass

on my 18th bday, my bags r gunna be packed n ready and my ass will be out of that house

and lj SUCKS

phill ((apparently its phill with two l's)) got me flowers yesterday!! PINK carnations!! how sweet!! :) i got off at 5 n crystal picked me up.. we went to valentinos n then met phil at foodtown while we were in the dollar store talkin to ryans mom n he walks in n has flowers.. i gave him a HUGEE hug n it was real cute!! he looked adorable too.. so ( Read more... )

ok complaining about work for a second here!! i was on register the other day n this guy bill.. whos the other backroom boss comes on my line with the front end boss tia n they were talking n bill says "yea i bet that n***** phil did it" i was like OMG. bill doenst like me so i kno he did it on purpose cuz he nos thats my bf.. and i didnt tell phil ( Read more... )

dying my hair rite now.. weeks been ok.. my dad wont talk to me relle.. bc of phil.. he doesnt no were dating.. he just thinks we are friends.. he told me hes embarassed of me for being with a black guy.. he wont even meet him.. phil is SUCH a sweetheart, i wish he would just meet him.. i mean he finished college.. hes got a good job making almost ( Read more... )

i got my license.. and i got a phil :).. a black phil.. im dating a black man.. and hes is sooo sweet! its great bc like.. u dont think about the fact that hes black or nething.. just that hes.. there.. my dad doesnt know, bc he would kill me.. he said hed rather see me in kentucky then dating phil.. so we can only be friends.. fuck that ( Read more... )

i may not be in jersey for much longer...

im fuckin snowed in and it sucks.. i was supposed to hang out with mike n crystal today and i had work till 6, but the car is stuck in all the snow bc my road was never plowed ( Read more... )

life is good.. but i feel so.. empty.. ever since found out i was only good for one thing.. ronnie is such a fuckhead.. our last conversation goes a little bit like this ( Read more... )