watching mtv's celeb teen cribs makes me more depressed than anything else. its people like this that make me feel like a total failure at being human. theyre only 15-18 and they already have their own house and car. im almost 18 and still fucking up at life on a pretty regular basis.

damn you

sometimes all you need is to walk around a 6-block radius of your rooftop garden over and over for an hour while airing all of your grievances and anxieties with slightly-more bravado-than-necessary to your dad. talking to someone older and wiser who's found something true in this unfair life, somehow you become artful in your obstinance. ive let ( Read more... )

i hate it when people who have hardly any inkling on what's going on pass judgment or give comments, acting as if they're the know-all. most of the time, the development of unfounded rumours and gossip are stacked on baseless and groundless impressions, propagated most efficiently by people whom are of the delusional mentality that they are ( Read more... )

1. wake up
2. survive
3. go back to bed

after about four years, i still dont really know why i post my life on the internet. sometimes, i think its to communicate with friends (new and old and ones very far away). sometimes, its because im bored or procrastinating on or avoiding something. sometimes, i think it fills some selfish personal fulfillment void that allows me to wrap up my ( Read more... )

i seriously hate compliments cause i always think that people are lying to me

i love sleeping. my life has the tendency to fall apart when im awake, yknow? :(

sometimes, i really dont know what to expect of myself, i dont know what to think about anymore. i really wish my brain would just shut the fuck up and stop talking to me for once because its fucking exhausting and irritating. my life is one big gross joke and maybe i need to stop being so introspective and be more open about my feelings and stop ( Read more... )

so, im doing this thing where im eliminating fast food, premade meals and as much packaged food out of my life.  major exceptions: nutella, indomie, chipotle and anything consumed while intoxicated ( Read more... )

1. getting rich
2. getting thin