long time. don't care. oddly alone. maybe 4 people of all the people I know actually get it. that's an interesting thing to know. playing the franck sonata. in love with it. planning my recital. learning a lot from the people around me. want to get out. don't ever wanna leave. twisted feeling this is, getting old. miss old friends. crave new ones. ( Read more... )

nothing is quite what I thought it was, or would be, or could be.

my friends are...non existent. all of the people I've cared so much about and worked so hard for (save my roommates and kristin) have disappeared. and because of it (among other things), I'm feeling very lonely and inadequate. I'm trying so hard to keep positive, but I'm struggling in life. I'm working, but I'm struggling. I miss something..I'm not ( Read more... )

So I have the cancer. Like, baby cancer. If that makes sense. Cancerous cells, but they're not killing me right now. And won't kill me tomorrow. (probably when I'm 45 though) I'll have surgery in the very beginning of August to get it removed. When I get back from travelling and such. And such ( Read more... )

I guess it's been quite some time since I've written here. At least anything substantial. I had a dream this morning that my alarm was actually text messages. And I was talking/texting with two people, Dan and someone else I don't know who..and I thought that the messages were being sent like every 5 seconds and I didn't have enough time to look at ( Read more... )

got every single class I wanted at the time desired...god it's good to be an [incoming] upperclassman

I just played the best game of soccer I think I've ever played. What a good feeling.

1.) Where were you at the very start of 2006 ( Read more... )

New Year's Eve. As the clock strikes 12 midnight, there will be an east coast of happy Americans celebrating with grand amounts of celebration. All will be right with the world, and it represents the newly turned leaf in your ever-monotonous life ( Read more... )

It's over! Paganini is over!! What a huge weight lifted from my shoulders. *smiles