There always seems to be someone in the way
another in the bed that I lay
every time a different person and different lie
not good enough not pretty maybe just to fucked inside
I can't seem to make things right or,
do the right thing
and its something that drives me completely insane

thoughts screaming in my head
chasing insanity every hour
and you touch me just devour
all the things that you need
this madness is setting in
maybe they'll all succeed

I fucking hate rhyming

Today church is words of sense that i can't make sense of, and prayer is me screaming inside of my head. Screaming at people the others of this world say are real. Maybe one's right the others are wrong, maybe they're all wrong. I wish each one could right to all of their own, but today it doesn't matter. Today i am screaming at all the gods known ( Read more... )

and todays general opinion is...... i suck!

i think i'm crashing ( Read more... )

i can't do this i can't breathe i'm falling apart. i'm breaking at the seams. my mind is crashing down. i'm giving up on me. i can pretend it's ok. build myself up on false hopes. make it all better with fake dreams. pretending i'm ok. hoping i can be normal. but it falls apart. it falls away. i know i need help. why can't i just do it on my own. ( Read more... )

she's sinking in her mind
crashing into dreams of the future
forgetting she ever had a past

she's losing her feeling
to cold tipped numb fingers
closing her eyes
so her day dreams won't linger

She's forgetting it all
creating something new
destroying it all
for dreams of a future with you

today i sit ( Read more... )

is she real any more ( Read more... )

tick tick tick tick i watch the time flow by breathing in softly wishing it would stop dead in its tracks no more problems no more lies no tears no more goodbyes tick tick tick it keeps going it keeps flowing it keeps passing me up showing me reasons to give up tick tick falling apart every day that goes by every minute that passes us how long can ( Read more... )