I'm not positive but I have a feeling my dad read this because he made a comment about everything I wrote in my last entry..so from now on I'm going to have to watch what I write about and I made another account for when I feel like posting about stuff I don't want to risk him reading ( Read more... )

So 2008 is not off to a good start. I'm seriously considering dropping out of school and i'm moving out as soon as i have enough money and a place to go. I hate family! I went to Toronto to see Jeannette and Alley on Thursday and my dad completely freaked out. He called and told me and my cousin that we can't keep our own lives together so we ( Read more... )

nothing about this makes sense
just tell me, is it okay to cry
or should i keep it all inside? 

So I felt the need to write in here but I'm having a hell of a time putting anything into words tonight so I think it's going to take awhile. Friday was an experience but definatly not a good one. At like 9am my grandpa took me and Sam to the cottage so we could do our photography but when we got there I just got a whole bunch of flashbacks because ( Read more... )

This is a song that pretty much sums up how I feel. I changed a few things so that it would fit the situation better

Your life dreams are shattered, now you're gone away
We've cried here for hours, and the hours turn to days
We know he'll regret this, leaving us here without you
With portraits and memories that we've held so dear.

When I hear your name ( Read more... )

So Dustin's moving to California in January. I'm glad he's going because it's what he wants but I don't think I'm going to be able to say goodbye..it's going to completely kill me. I don't think he knows how much he means to me. I cry just thinking about it so who knows how I'm going to be when he actually leaves. But it's not about how I feel..it' ( Read more... )

We're always being told to do what's best for us..but are we suppose to do what's best for us now, or what's best for our future? What if doing what's best for our future is currently making us unhappy? Maybe it depends on the situation. Well if that's the case, then where do you draw the line and how do you tell which road to take and when to take ( Read more... )

....ughh death....that's about all I have to say right now. I don't even know how to descride what I'm feeling...I'm just so overwhelmbed by everything right now and the only way I can think to even start to explain it is that stabbing a dagger into my chest and just having everything seep out of me sounds like a HUGE relief ( Read more... )

Goodbye For Now
I remember that day like it was yesterday
lying in bed when the phone rang
a feeling of unease spread through my body like a silent knife
even before the words escaped his lips
words I won't repeat, words I can't repeat...for now

I remember walking into that building
looking at the somber faces that were once lit with smiles
we all shared ( Read more... )

So I think I've finally reached my breaking point tonight..I'm going crazy. I thought I was able to handle everything a lot better now but aparently that only lasts so long. I want to cut so bad! I don't know why but everything is hitting me at once tonight and I can't handle it. I'm seriously thinking about getting out of my house for a couple ( Read more... )