i had a pretty good day today. i decided to go to church afterall. i told myself, ill go and see how i feel, i can always leave. but when i walked in and heard everyone singing, i felt a little happier inside. my friends greeted me and hugged me, and told me that theyd wondered where id been and had been a little worried. they really do care, i ( Read more... )

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well i cut again
go me

dont really like em *note: the beauty icon's bg is one of my original photographs*

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i had a really shitty night last night. i was very depressed and anxious and shaky, and well, i just reallly wanted to cut. i had no one to call to talk to, and all my chat rooms were empty. i tried to occupy myself for a bit, and i kinda did for awhile. i watched a movie and did a scrapbook page, but still felt very anxoius. so i logged back ( Read more... )

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i dont really like em all the much, but whatever. waht you guys think? and what do you think i could do to improve them?


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I had a dream last night,which is a big deal for me since i hardly ever remeber when i dream.

i was in my car in the church parking lot, alone and slowly dragging my razor accross my arms. there was a loud tap on my car window. it was my friend, phil. he was yelling at me but i couldn't hear him. he tried to open the passenger side car door, but i ( Read more... )

well, i said id update bout the party thing, so here it is.

i showed up saturday night and it went alright. when everyone got there, we dressed are brides to be up in coconut bras and stuff (in theme with their honeymoons) and went out to chilis to eat. i ate SO much, and i felt pretty bad about it afterwards. the thought of getting rid of it ( Read more... )