just start typing,
let the words hit the page like your head hits the pillow,
a slump and a thud,
like a bomb that's a dud,
poetry comes in many forms I've always said,
whether it's on the page or in your head,
whether you're alive or dead,
no hope without dread,
no divorce without newlyweds.
I'm supposed to bend words; phrases,
stuck in my phases.
I'm ( Read more... )

can't believe we are still here. with a title like that. sure, i'm not quite there yet but it's still such a revelation to see. this journal was started when i was in highschool. it's mind-boggling. i've never stopped dreaming, i've kept these eyes starry always looking at the future.

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"No money, no family,
Sixteen, in the middle of Miami.
No money, no family,
Sixteen, in the middle of Miami."

I couldn't begin to describe the overwhelming feelings of disassociation that I often feel. Wondering if all of reality is a simulation meant to test certain hypotheses, or even if the simulation is just meant to observe if conscious beings ( Read more... )

I've loved and I've lost but mostly lost,
a love scattered across the stars,
it might have been my fault,
all of this,
from the start,
I've never stopped believing,
even now.
as dark as the hour seems,
as dark as the setting of this scene,
relief in the form of an altered state,
remix these days into dates,
every line you try to complicate,
you won't ever ( Read more... )

Here we go again...back at my self-imposed battleground.
Have a line break like a heart,
Have a period end a sentence rather than a sentence ending you.
It's always this or that, here and there, then and now,
the world is a coin flip,
not in probabilities but everything literally comes down to either here or there,
superposition or symmetry,
1s and 0s ( Read more... )

Wrap up the details in a blogpost,
zip up the lining to your darkest secrets in the handbag you bought her.
Try to forget them like she has for you.
when it's all over you'll realize it always was.
turn these negative feelings into something,
can't say all expression is positive but at least it's something.
better than nothing but you were better off ( Read more... )

Spruce up your piece with some photos,
create a new GUI and call it an update,
I'm glad this website is still around to tell my secrets.
this journal is love found in the lost and found and lost again,
stumble upon this like relics in a desert,
believe in yourself even when no one else does.
never give up in any endeavor,
shake the cigarette smoke from ( Read more... )

I haven't come here with tears in my eyes in years.
It's a cleansing, a purification, a baptism of bitching.
Find pieces of yourself scattered across the floor like the jigsaw to an unsolved puzzle,
these tears aren't the kind that previously kept me up in the dim blue AM of a dark room and a livejournal.
These tears represent more,
Everyone tells me ( Read more... )

Just finished watching The Great Gatsby, probably only my second time watching the remake ( Read more... )

that nasty snarl. the font. the keystrokes. the spell check underline ( Read more... )