i'm up because i can't sleep. i had coffee with austin earlier and it has given me the worst case of heartburn i've ever had. so, because i like to inflict pain on myself every now and then, i've been looking up my older siblings on the internet. it's something i do with less and less frequency as i get older, but still, there are days when i'm ( Read more... )

so i'm listening to "super bonbon" really loudly because i hit my fucking head on the shelf on my wall and now my thoughts are spinning around bright colors of ache and frustration. "super bonbon" highlights the anxiety in a way that makes me feel a little more alive and a lot more angry ( Read more... )

billy just left. he was only here for 19 hours, but his trip meant a lot. and not just because it's good to know that he still loves us, but because he always puts things in a strange persepective for me. billy is a glamorous academic with the attention span of a seven year old boy with extreme adhd. he has a vast amount of information in his ( Read more... )

i stayed up to watch the weekly pbs news report and now my stomach hurts and i feel angry. it was a profile of kansas and how they're trying to end all "reproductive" freedoms. any medical personal (doctor, clinic, school counselork, psycholgist, etc.) MUST report any incidence of ANY kind of sexual activity in EVERYONE under the age of 16. and ( Read more... )

i've had what men call "a long day ( Read more... )

it feels like it's a lot later than it actually is. vincent's already asleep; passed out on our bed, a book thrown open across his chest. he's reading "lunar park," which he bought for me for my birthday. it is honestly the scariest thing i have ever fucking read. i don't mean wacky scary or bad scary, i mean look over your shoulder, have ( Read more... )

bjorn, our lovely friend and master photographer, has put up a site of wedding photos. it is in no way complete and it is mostly photos of risd folk & kids, but it makes me smile. it will make you smile, too.http://homepage.mac.com/bjorniooss/Wedding/

summer means i become the center of the universe for a handful of kids who two months from now will forget my name and later in life when they look back on their childhood summers, they will vaguely remember a counselor who held them when they cried and bandaged up their boo-boos ( Read more... )

my parents drove up to hershey tonight with brian to go out to a belated dinner for father's day and my mum's birthday. vincent and i got them tickets to see lewis black on thursday and since my da was in ohio most of last week, this was the first time we were all together to exchange. we had sandwhiches at issac's and talked about tattoos; the ( Read more... )

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