i've been pining for some free & clear moments to read and organize and compose and meditate and even work, on do-it-in-my-own-time stuff at least, and film and write and practice piano, accompaniments at least, and shop and cook and talk and craft and etc. etc. etc. for ages, eons, and lifetimes, and now i'm finally having a few but all i find ( Read more... )

Regardless of my opinions regarding albums with a song titled exactly as is the album itself, this entry is the most definitively title-exemplifying of the journal to date. I've made the most definitive mental Post-it note of my life to date, and re-pocketed the grandest lighter. If I try to keep going, I'll undoubtedly make exponentially ( Read more... )

i know im not allowed to say it but OMG I AM SO DONE WITH C--erhm, this.

i'm loosening my bow and closing my computer and packing my shit and putting it in my locker and going to my past and laying in the cold and going to the house and packing my shit and going to lawrence and going to omaha and seeing the barenaked ladies and going to wichita and even if i'm not sick for the first time in a week and a half tomorrow i' ( Read more... )

How am I not myself?.

[things] = ridiculous

i'm behind in 998 classes (im taking a thousand but i dropped one and im doing fine in one)
saturday evening ben folds covered postal service's 'such great heights' and it cracked me the fuck up
saturday night it was weirdly intensely nice to see a thousand people from high school who somewhat don't exist (awh david <3 heh ( Read more... )

i miss Nathaniel

i miss a lot of things

but on an almost entirely unrelated note, i don't freak out.

Symphony musicians targets of vandalism

"I know if you're like me you want to get home quick and hide the razor blades in the candy, so..." - Maestro Mark Laycock

I had seven musical orgasms last week; related statistics aside, life is not shaping entirely shittily.

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my camera batteries died
and i had no replacements for them (unusual)

my phone battery died
and i never had both time and means to charge it (unbelievable)

my everything-else was entirely not-what-it-was-supposed-to-be ( Read more... )