fuck.
i hate that i'm so angry. i hate that everything reminds me why i'm angry. i hate that i consciously have to force myself to not be angry just so that i can eat. i hate that i've let something fuck with the daily routine i've worked so hard for. and i'm angry because this has all been forced upon me and i have no idea how to get passed it.
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1) imagine that whatever was forced upon you doesnt have to be dealt with immediately. divide it over 1000 days. it loses its significance. take it day by day, and thats all you can do. dont think about the end.
2) (and this is the cop out) remember this was forced upon YOU. just like your place in life. you really cant do much about it. sooo dont feel so responsible for it, dont care about it so much. people will use you because of this. dont let them if it forces you into a bad spot. this is a bad example but remember plinko from the price is right? were all plinkos and we cant help where we end up. go with the flow
i hope this helps =/ i dont know how transferrable mindsets are.
ps whats this perks of a wallflower thing?
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the 1000days thing is a pretty good idea. i've been trying just to take it five minutes at a time, but that hasn't seemed to work for me yet. heh.
you technically have no control over this, but i think my favorite part of your reply was that i read it with such angst. i don't disqualify that it was forced upon me, but i suppose with a clearer mind, i can see that everything from here is my own doing to myself. but it sucks ass nonetheless.
i love plinko. and that's actually the strangest and most kickass analogy i've ever been given.
the perks of being a wallflower is a book by stephen chbosky. my most adorable friend recommended it to me and i would definitely put it in my top five all time favorite books.
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