This is purely a vent journal I am doing it for me and if anyone cares to comment great if not no biggie and no one can judge me on this. I stay because I want I will leave when I want to ( Read more... )

I told you to pretend he was me tonight just for one night. I don't know if it was the right thing I hope it was. The motive was to help you and i hope and pray it did. I love you and i hate that i am not there for you right now not physically but there is so very much that is there and i hope you know and can feel it......

Ok here goes just gonna start and hope to make some sense of it all... or just get it out ( Read more... )

It's kinda different around here lol I really should write. Alot has changed here in my life and some good some bad some really undecided. I am gonna take my contacts out maybe I will write more..... or not. lol

Ok first off this is a post that I need to write to both clear my head and get some things off of my chest mostly for me and if anyone reading this takes something from it ask me about it because i dont want anyone getting the wrong idea ( Read more... )

I pushed her away. I feared it would happen and now it happened....

This sucks i am no better than R....

I think this journal may be dead for a while...or for good i dont know much anymore i am kinda lost

Well not every year last year at this time was awesome lol ( Read more... )

Well as the subject says I am gonna try and put two thoughts together and see what all shakes out ( Read more... )

yeah now completely financially on the road to ruin. overdrawn gonna lose insurance because of it then comes car then comes job i am soooo fucked and i dont know what to do it is sad that i let it get to this point cant seem to get over that hump and i was doing better but a few things happen and now i am soooo messed up ugh why why why ( Read more... )

Ok I am kinda a mess right now ( Read more... )