Ouch, it hurts again ( Read more... )

Saw my heart in the palm of your hand
Watched as you made me bleed
Impressive, you kill me twice
My hand to yours
I place them on my chest
This is self inflicted
This is Masochistic
There is not much more to destroy
It was a combined effort
But we did good
We broke me

Today I was was just thinking about how everyone whether they admit it or not wants to be better. We want to be kinder, more giving, more friendly, whatever. I realized that most of the time we want these positive attributes, and it's for a reason, it's because all of these positive things are a reflection of God. Have you ever been around someone ( Read more... )

This weekend I've felt like I have had a million little things to do, and it feels like I haven't even made a dent in them. In all of that, amazingly, I've still discovered a lot about myself. Lately I haven't been on guard with my words and how I say things. It's pretty frustrating because I know right after I say something that I shouldn't have ( Read more... )

Hold tight boy, I'll pull you close
You wont have room to fall apart
Those pieces of you I'm clutching
We're both waiting
Waiting for the great I AM
When he comes love
Everything will be okay
In the mean time
I'll keep you here
I'll kiss your wrists
I'll hear you plead
And together we'll hope for tomorrow

This week has been crazy but also strangely satisfying. I'm so glad it's over and this next week can start fresh. I have faced challenges and I did not walk in God's grace when I needed to. Amazingly I got the important things done and done well. I learned that I actually need to make that choice of receiving grace and not reverting back to my ( Read more... )

1 O God, you are my God ( Read more... )

I'm slowly learning to be grateful, but it's kind of a painful process. I never used to think of being thankful or the lack there of as painful, but I do now. I have learned that it is very easy to be ungrateful or unsatisfied with the way things are. That shows up in raising funds, but mostly where I am and where I'm going. This weekend was really ( Read more... )

This week I wasn't really focused on one specific thing, but today I feel like I've been going through a lot. I think it started with me dropping Nate off at the airport. I felt very much alone after he had left. When I got home and spent time with the Lord, it was so good. I've been learning that my heart and soul need him so badly. I need his ( Read more... )

I have had to submit my heart, my emotions, my thoughts, and my future to God more times than I can count this week. I have had to just learn the lovely lesson of surrender over and over it seems since DTS. I guess I am scared of being taken to where I do not want to go and away from the ones I love, but I know that God is good and he knows whats ( Read more... )