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What a strange need this is - to record despair and convert it into a heap of disjointed words that exist only for the sake of their existence. Nevertheless the need exists, and there is little sense in ignoring it ( Read more... ) -
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It isn't true that I don't feel. I felt today.
A rush of blood to the head.
Something a little like fear.
Hope.
Disappointment.
Anger.
Guilt.
Anger.
Anger.
Anger.
Then, as though my heart - or whatever place it is that these things come from - dried up: emptiness. Until -
A flash-flood of tears.
Anger.
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A Nocturnal Scene
Night. The street is a ballroom. It is dark, save for a single spotlight in which I am standing; it is empty, save for the three of us: a man in a black tailcoat (who sits with his back to me, playing the piano), the music, and myself. The music is all the company I need: at times I am swinging gently in wide steps from side to side; at others I ( Read more... ) -
Old books, old friends
Re-reading a good book is like meeting a good friend ( Read more... ) -
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"Leaning Against The Wall" (Kings of Convenience)
Your eyes are cold,
I know you'll tell me all.
Not to fall,
I lean against the wall.
I'm on the floor,
not listening anymore.
I should have known,
the things to which you're prone.
(You cross your arms,
and tell no lies,
a thousand thoughts run
through my mind,
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Angels and Demons 1 - Introduction to the concept of Evil and Good.
Evil:- morally wrong or bad; immoral; wicked
- that which is evil; evil quality, intention, or conduct
- the force in nature that governs and gives rise to wickedness and sin
- the wicked or immoral part of someone or something
- harm; mischief; misfortune
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I've been walking through a haze for days. The airborne dust swirls around me in slow motion, obstructing my vision so that I can hardly see an arm's length away. Just beyond those limits I discern vague symbols, strange words in ancient tongues. My senses are dull, my thoughts are confused, molten together like metals in a furnace. My breath ( Read more... ) -
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"Your ears are full but you're empty
Holding out your heart
To people who never really
Care how you are
So give me Coffee and TV
History
Seen so much I'm going blind
And I'm brain dead virtually
Sociability
Is hard enough for me
Take me away from this big bad world
And agree to marry me
So we can start all over again"
-Blur - Coffee and TV
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He saw nothing wrong in my smile when he kissed me ( Read more... ) -
Old Stuff Galore 19 - Thinking Too Much
Yes, I had a crush on my commander. How very typical of me, no? To be charmed entirely with the wrong person, who cares nothing about me outside of his duty, then proceeds to disappear from my life leaving hardly a trace. But that's me, I suppose: the constant Damsel in Distress with no Prince Charming.
When he left I was obviously miserable, and ( Read more... )