You will always be my morning star...always. *

[summer_dayz_919]

So here I am again doing my weekly post...as if any one ever reads it. hah I swear I say that every week. 
Ugh! Life. That's all I need to say.
Things are getting soooooooo frustrating sometimes. I don't know if I'm making a huge mistake leaving this school or not. Now that I'm not in the nursing program, I have so much time and I love it! I do so

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[orka_dream17]

ACTUALLY you're wrong. I catch up on Livejournal every once in a while, I just can't find the time to sit down and compose beautiful words like you do. I love to read your writing Sarah... sure some of it is rambling, but then I can just totally picture you saying it and I miss you, lol. As stupid as this may sound though, I kind of get what you are going through. Well maybe not I don't know. All I know is that I feel lost in my relationship right now... I'M the only one making the effort it seems, and we only live TWENTY minutes away. I feel like I should just give up on everything, but then I don't even know how to write/say my feelings, I just know that I can't just "let go" like you said. I haven't seen Sean in about 2 weeks, and despite my effort of making plans to see him, the only form of communication and contact has been through 3 minute cell phone conversations and text messaging. I miss how it used to be, I thought that when I came to college I'd have more freedom, more time to see him, no asking my mom if I could, and it's

[summer_dayz_919]

Man, the things you said were really comforting. Someone told me that if you can make it through college, then you can make it through anything. And I have to admit, I believe them, but this is really hard. Do you believe them? Do you think it's possible to get through 4 years of this? There are days where I feel like "yes! I can do this!" And days where I'm like "I can't do this..." I have a hard time listening to Default lately because some of the songs make me really sad because of their lyrics. :o( But this song by Mariah Carey makes me feel like I can do this...it's called "Through the Rain" it's cheesy but after I listen to it...im like "yea..psh! I was born and that was the biggest challenge! I beat 700,000 other sperms. I can beat this!" The biggest question is, is it worth it?
I miss you too!!! I'm so lost without my friends with me. I feel so alone all the time! :o( I've made some pretty new friends though but not many..just 2 lol. Thank you for writing to me :o)