I went to work today. I wasn't really looking forward to Monday morning! I dread Mondays! Today was slow which is good. It's company payday on Thursday and I know it will be crazy again. Normally, I love paydays, that is if I am on the receiving end of it. Otherwise, I do not enjoy it at all. People calling and asking stupid questions and people ( Read more... )

A year has passed since I graduated. My mom is now gone and I am left here still wishing that it was me who passed away. My grief sometimes overwhelms me and I do not know how to handle it. I want to hide away from the whole world. I want to be left alone. Unfortunately, I cannot just do that. I am still surrounded by people and I am still here. I ( Read more... )

Your Birthdate: September 2
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Things I have to think about when I was told I had cancer ( Read more... )

My mom left us. She's been gone for a couple of weeks now. The whirlwind of funeral arrangements and overwhelming condolences and sympathies of friends and relatives have settled down. Loss is still loss and she is gone forever. I still wish I was the one who went away. I miss her everyday...I keep staring at her pictures that I took while she was ( Read more... )

God took my beloved mom away from me yesterday at 4:15am. My dad woke me and my sister up at that time because my mom had stopped breathing. We rushed to her bedside and saw that she indeed had stopped breathing. We were in quite a panic and we were all crying. My mom had left us quietly. She did not look like she struggled on her way out ( Read more... )

I am grateful to a friend of mine for helping me out so that I can stay with my mom on her last days. I've just been spending time with her these days. I don't feel like going out. I just want to stay with her the whole time. Anyways, I really have nothing much going on. My time and energy belongs to my mom...

Life has not exactly been peachy these days. My mom is again in the hospital. She is not doing well. I expect that she will be going anytime soon. There are times I wish I was the one dying and not her. I would not mind it at all. My life for her life...

I've been spending a lot of time on my university forums so I have been venting out there a lot...hence, the explanation for why I have not posted here for so long. Anyways, my love interest found someone else last week and so I am going to move on with life. I am really disappointed and was angry initially but I guess it was never meant to be ( Read more... )

My mom is in the hospital. I think my mom is tired of fighting her cancer. She just wants to go it seems. I'll be in the hospital this weekend tending to her ( Read more... )