I once had this friend who I would sit up with at night, on a regular basis. What we'd do...well to be honest I am not really sure anymore. It seems to me that we used to look on to all the people among us who slept. I feel like me and this friend...we never acknowledged the fact that we both lay awake when the rest slept so soundly, but we both ( Read more... )

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I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand and continued driving slowly through the dark park. Now and then I would grab the half empty bottle of rum and drink. I am getting plastered, I thought, feeling the effect of the rum creeping outward to my fingers and upward to my lips. The car rolled slowly round and round the sloping curves. The rum's ( Read more... )

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I am getting so tired of hearing, "I know how much you love her." Yes, but one sided love doesn't make the relationship work. She doesn't love me and I am ok with that, I truly do want her to be happy. Yes, it sucks that I don't fit into that picture, but that is life. I want the best for her.

I am depressed.

We are back to talking to each other, I mean actually talking about stuff and enjoying the presence of our company together. It has been a while since we have been there. We played in the streets last night with Kendo sticks and I was delighted to teach a move or too. It was fun, and genuine happiness was seen on the face, maybe there is hope. ( Read more... )

I sat in the bathroom today frustrated with the mass amounts of Earwigs that we seem to find everyday in both our bathroom and oour kitchen. I decided that I would pick up a can of air freshener and spray then at close range. I watched as the earwigs scrambled for their lives and I found myself angry at myself because it must be a miserable death ( Read more... )

I've fixed Kellyn's sewing machine so we can help mom and dad dixon with the wedding and such so we have a pile of sewing to work on. Together last night we worked for few hours on bodices, skirts, and whatever else there is and we have completed the bodice for Shaula minus buttons or something and the entirety of the bottom half of Michelles ( Read more... )

I am losing my head. Like seriously, I may cry a lot.