Something came to me.... You've always talked of how you need to do this or that or else he'll, "make your life hell", yet being seperated from me isn't hell. It's the lesser of the two.

Today I got something interesting in the mail. I'm sure she knows what I'm talking about. How many more nails are you going to drive into my soul? You already stole my soul, my heart, and who I am. You took everything inside of me and kicked me to the curb ( Read more... )

I refuse to give up on you though. I don't think you know how much I truly do love you or how much I would do for you. I am still madly in love with you, and that makes me hate myself.

You still have not contacted me.... You've chosen to ignore the fact that I even exist and I don't know why. It makes me sadder than anything else in my entire life. I don't know what hurts more. The fact that you've completely abandoned me when you said you wouldn't or the fact that you just don't care.

(  A poem I've seen before, but I think is fitting to how I feel )

I got out of the hospital today. I feel numb, but better. Seem to have more control of my emotions than I did a week ago. *sigh* We'll see where things go from here....

:) (a smile for anyone reading)

I am going into the hospital today. I'll be in there for the next day or two. If anything is going to happen, I atleast need to become stable.

I can't help myself. It's like I have no control over my own feelings. I just feel a need to comfort her. No matter how angry, hurt, lonely, and afraid I feel, I cannot stop thinking about how much I love her. And I know she feels the same way ( Read more... )

Tonight is the night I die. The woman who said over and over again she loves me has destroyed my heart. My faith and reason for living has been destroyed. She told me over and over again how much she wanted to be with me. How much she was dying inside before we came together. I will always love her with all my heart, but now I will have to do ( Read more... )

Woohoo for me. :)