i'm always compelled to evaluate my life when something of merit (good or bad, fortunate or unfortunate) occurs. as i don't believe in fate, destiny, the divine infrastructure, or even any of that kharma that i jokingly toss around at coincidence and happenstance, it is in my nature to trigger retrospective. what did i do? what circumstances led to ( Read more... )

i believe it's time i weigh in on this conflict in the middle east ( Read more... )

i came up with a perfect description of this town: "it's a great place to grow up and die, but get the fuck out in between." i can't do anything here, this is not where greatness is wrought. i won't claim that i am destined for glory, but my efforts to seek it would be greatly in vain here. there's no point to this, just something i felt i should ( Read more... )

"'That explanation didn’t make complete sense to me, but I accepted it,' he said. 'I’d been in the Army a long time, and when they tell you something, you believe it ( Read more... )

i don't know if lake county air intoxicated me with the desire to change, but nothing i've done lately has been to secure myself in a pattern, nothing but efforts to become someone else. someone who doesn't typify himself as an unlucky chap with nothing going for him. he needs to leave, his frown brings us all down. am i disguising myself or ( Read more... )

1. have a relationship fed by overpowering, reciprocal love ( Read more... )

i don't profess to know the truth. about anything. the truth has become, as i get older, more relative. it's depressing to have to appreciate the entity that tells something closer to the truth than the other guy ( Read more... )

i'm emo? hell if i know. the only thing i really like of the culture is their music (and sometimes their girls)... and only when it has some screaming here and there. i much prefer to be chase. i think a fantastic homage would be to have a subculture named after you. "dude, you are so chase." everybody's dying to be a part of something. i didn't ( Read more... )

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lately, more and more, i've become more aware of the finality of my life. that this is the only shot. i've become severely disgusted with societal mores because they are the impasses (is that right?) to change. they are established to maintain an order, so that nothing in the world seems out of balance. fuck the system ( Read more... )