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Star Light, Star Bright, First Star I See Tonight....
I wish I may, I wish I might, have the wish I wish tonight...
Dear whomever is listening...
I wish dearly for the ability to just stop giving a fuck. I want to hold my breath; I want the pain to stop. I want for all this stupidity to just go away. I want to be lost in my own self and be able to keep people far away from me. I don't want to want to ( Read more... ) -
Pray... that's the only advise I can give myself.
I've been thinking about this a lot lately. "This" being my life. It's stuck in this rut and it's not going anywhere. I have ten thousand things to do... and no motivation to do them. I could do them... but I choose not to. I know that my parents and everyone around me will come down on my later, but honestly, the dishwasher can wait until I finish ( Read more... ) -
HEARING AIDS AT LAST!!
HOLY CRAP, YES!
Haha. Quite an interesting title, no?
Well, Emma is now very very excited. Why? you might ask. Well, she'll tell you why.
EMMA IS FINALLY GETTING HEARING AIDS!
I went in today to VoiceLabs (A factory direct warehouse for hearing implements) and had another hearing screening done. The results were dismal. In November, my hearing loss ( Read more... ) -
... Not happy....
Dear Diary,
Life has been shit lately, and I have no idea why. I mean, things are going well enough. I'm keeping some food down now... enough that I no longer have to go to my dr. every week for a weigh in... now I only have to go every 2 weeks... oh joy.
My story has been going well. Today I wrote the all important lemon chapter. Everyone liked it ( Read more... ) -
My Up, My Down
I didn't sleep well last night. Well, that was a lie. I slept well. I, in fact, had a very odd dream that I remember most of. What I didn't do was get to sleep easily. And that was annoying in the most unhealthy way. ick.
I got up early this morning because I had an appointment at a Salon way out in Anderson. I got my hair cut and tomorrow mom and ( Read more... ) -
I have no reason to be so depressed...
I have no idea why I am so depressed.
I've been writing like crazy for the past few days. I started posting a story to www.fanfiction.net.
It's called "Fragments of Me". I've written 16 chapters so far, and they still want more. I've been getting really awesome reviews and have developed some very strong followers. It makes me really happy. I've ( Read more... ) -
Noah says I need to post more.
Noah says I need to post more.
I have no idea what to post about.
so... yeah.... hi?
lol
oh, my brother is in surgery right now. That's about it.
Edit:
Today I bought the new Linkin Park CD. I expect good things. I also bought Witch Hunter Robin, the complete collection. ^^ and I got the 3 Days Grace, Elliot Yamin, and Live CDs. and by "got" I ( Read more... ) -
The Happy Pills
So last night I spent roughly 4 hours in the hospital.
"It seems very clear to me that you have a severe case of depression. I'm sure that doesn't surprise you; you're a smart girl. I can tell just by looking at you. Things are starting to come together. You need to get this taken care of. See a professional psychologist and if you can, and you' ( Read more... ) -
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I am a hypocrite, and I hate that.
I can't believe what an idiot I have been in this.
My only fear is losing you again, and I am certainly not helping to pull you close when I do things like this.
I'm sorry
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I can't stop....
I just can't seem to stop crying ( Read more... )