1 step forward, 5 steps backwards

Life is good for me. I have been hanging out with my mom a lot and working out our problems...there are many so this may take a while but I am really glad we are doing it because I want a good realtionship with her. I got a new diary which I am totally excited about! I get to box up and put away all the andrew crap, I am doing so well on getting ( Read more... )

I spent this past weekend watching the history channel becuase there were such good specials on!! Seriously I have secretly been inlove with that channel for a long time! Anyway that is my nerdy comment of the year ( Read more... )

All of you who know me understand what these lyrics mean to me...and know what I have to do to be happy...walk away from the source of pain ( Read more... )

So last night andrew gave me a call and we hung out for a while. It was fun but nothing really new and interesting... He hugged me right when I opened the door which was really cute. My mom and dad were right there and that is always ackward...if you know my parents you understand ( Read more... )

Isn't it true when you feel like you need your friends the most they aren't there...not that my friends arent' there because the majority of them are. Like Jen, Adaam, Drew Geiger...I own my life to you kids...but my heart hurts a little because Andrew isn't there for me. Now that he just got back in town for christmas I have mixed feelings...do ( Read more... )

Frustration!!!!!!!! I know that this is just lame bitching but I am so sad because Jen and I planned to have this cool welcome home thing. And it was going to be all great and it hasn't happened. Like every night something comes up and she can't or won't do it. I just feel really unimportant and hurt. I know it's not that big of a deal but it ( Read more... )

Hey! It's been tough latley because all andrew wants to do is be and ass and ruin everything that we had between us before our week togeter. I'm so sick of it all and I don't know why he is being so rude. It doesn't make sence. I'm sure when I got there that he will act nice the way that he used to. I have to try to be strong and not fall for ( Read more... )

Hey so I haven't been updating because I had surgery!! I got my gallbladder out earlier this week. I have been living at home while I've been very sick and it's been interesting to say the least. I miss Jen though like all the fucking time!! It's not the same living away from her...and ya I know we are wired! Anyway thats whats new with me..oh ( Read more... )

Just missing the one I love....

Close to you ~the Carpenters

Why do birds
Suddenly appear?
Everytime you are near
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

Why do stars
Fall down from the sky?
Everytime you walk by
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

(*) On the day that you were born
The angels got together and decided
To create a dream come true
So they ( Read more... )