highly unexpected no? its a quiet cold that makes me forces me to look out, feel the plunge. I know I will wake up from daydreaming and feel a bite of life and what I'm forced to do, but for right now, no bites, just the cold quiet. I thought if I could get him to want me, I might get a break, what a shallow thing, and extraordinarily naive. ( Read more... )

There in the library a homeless man sits on a chair with his legs propped up on another with one shoe missing and his sock grass stained on the second floor every half hour or so he grumbles about crapping and the misery of life that it ensues. He doesn't say it that way but thats how he means it. I'm really just wasting time, always when there ( Read more... )

I need a drink, I love him far too much.  my lo mein is getting cold, and my ear might be bleeding.  I'm jealous of those people too cool and don't care about those simple things that drive me crazy.  I get jealous easily, but I'm just nervous and almost certain that any choice I make is doomed.  I really can't learn the easy way.  He rapped some ( Read more... )

I've been boring lately, or at least predictable.  And I don't feel pretty in comparison.  I've been awfully judgmental, when really I'm never like that.  I try to pass it off as honesty but its really my bitterness poking through.  Someone gave their first impression of me, and it wasn't bad, but I felt as if it was kinder than it actually was.  I ( Read more... )

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big strapping boner, yeah I could feel it when we said goodbye. Mr. Flirtacious. Take my offer, and love me unconditionally. You burned yourself a place in my memory. She woke me up with a bang bang. High time to find something that’s been there for years. Her broken witness. While you sleep inside me I feel much too fragile. I pray to god, I see ( Read more... )

I thought about these days alot and how naive I'll always be.  And yet, that seems to be ok

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I have mixed feelings. I'm thinking its a sign, that maybe I'm not one meant for great things. Alejandro kissed me on the cheek twice and called me darling. So that makes failing classes feel a bit better. I was convinced that I was a good student, a good girl, but lately I can only concentrate on a seemingly solitary thing. I have to pack ( Read more... )

hearts so full of every possible thing, I might explode. I had a dream that I went to my grandmother's funeral, and when I went in, the family was very edgy about showing the body or mentioning the death in general...and for some reason everything about it made me feel it was my grandfather that died and I kept reminding myself its my grandmother ( Read more... )