...And suddenly reality sets in. The sun , that bright light that for so long was shining brightly is beginning to fade. A fog is setting down and a darkness descends. She feels her feet slipping from underneath her. She begins to tremble. She begins to recall that darkness. She knows she will be pulled back in and so she runs, she runs... but ( Read more... )

so yeah mhy ass was reamed out last week by Danielle and Pam about the whole cutting cals thing and I was told to return to my orignal 2400 meal plans. Well that hasnt happened. Instead ive been hitting like 1600 pretty consistantly. Eek i guess they're just gonna have to accept that thats the number of cals i eat...i dont know... Maybe im ( Read more... )

So yeah..my throat hurts i think i may have strep. Its snowing outside too. I need to get my ass to syracuse soon which i havent done this week or last week due to the weather and being sick. Im scared im gonna slide back. I have been not meal planning exactly lately instead, Ive just been keeping track as i go along...hmmm could be bad. I ( Read more... )

I love my effin life dude! I seriously am sooooo incredibly happy! I havent been this happy in a really long time! I think its all because of dance. I seriously love it and am so excited to be back! I love dancing and i love the poeple there! There seriosuly some of the best people i have ever met. I am excited to weake up every morning and ( Read more... )

deja vu! I fucking hate this world! Iam so naseous right now! I feel so gross i just remember and then i go to bed and i remember in my dreams. WHy me? do i wear a fucking sign? I just dont get it. I cant help but wonder is it something about me? Jesus i hope i can stay on track... i dont know! I dont know anything anymore!

So im out of the prgram at centre syracuse and i was feeling really confident i really was. I really want all this shit to be over and to be healthy and to move on with my life! I hope I can continue this in the future im afraid reality will set in...eeks...shit just keeps on happening to me! I dont now how to not be afraid. its like i finally ( Read more... )

Back at Le Moyne! This weekend I spent in Connecticut visiting my sister. My mom and I drove out on Saturday. It was nice to just get away form Le Moyne for a while. Especially since im done with school so i it was just relaxing- no worrying about work that had to be done or tests to study for. I came back to Le moyne late last night. I have ( Read more... )

Do you ever just get sick of living? Like whats the point and why should I even even try anymore? I just am so sick of dealing with crap. SOmetimes I just feel like ending it all because it seems so pointless and painfull. I dont even always know why i feel the way i do. Its like somtimes i just wanna scream, or cry or jump out of my window. ( Read more... )

Im in pain right now but we wont talk about that cuz i dont wanna think about it. ANyways, classes are over just a couple papers away from summer! I am gonna stay at Le Moyne and be a RA in harry hall. Hopefully, Im gonna be working with Houckie at a day camp monday through friday ( Read more... )

paper papers papers and work work work!!!! EEk but its good cuz that means summer is almost here!!! YAY! Im not sure what im doing this summer. My options ( Read more... )