being home this past month after being away at school for almost an entire year has made me realize just how much i actually hate leominster, and massachusetts in general. i've known ever since i moved here that this isn't where i'm supposed to be. i mean i love my friends to death, but there are legit only a handful of people besides my family ( Read more... )

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before? went to college ( Read more... )

sike. i can't remember that far back. but i feel the need to start writing in this piece again because i've been looking at old journal entries. so here ya go ( Read more... )

santa treated me quite nicely. :) new digital camera since mine got stolen, new computer, money, clothes, shoes, other random things. spent all my christmas on a video ipod, but whatev i really wanted it. i was supposed to go to dinner with michael tonight buuuut i don't have money soo.. i guess we'll have to reschedule. i should probably finish ( Read more... )

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i really appreciated the fact that i couldn't have one day, my fucking BIRTHDAY mind you, where someone didn't say something about me. fuck you. this goes down into the worst birthday ever. & last year, the person who made my birthday so good, didn't even so much as say happy birthday. fucking cool. whatever. but thanks to the people that actually ( Read more... )

my birthday is tomorrow. i doubt it'll live up to last year.

i guess my biggest fear is failing. & all of a sudden smack in my face it all came rushing to me today when i was looking at colleges. what if i don't get in to where i want to go? what if i fail? what if i'm not doing enough extracurricular activities? i feel inadequate. i hate that. & i can't sleep, because i'm too stressed. about everything. the ( Read more... )

i don't think i can ever be one of those people who says what's on their mind the exact moment they feel it. i really wish i could tell some people how upset/angry they make me & how much i hate them right now. but, i can't. & for that, i suck ( Read more... )

my hair is red. & i love it. my plans fell through tonight, because me & ashley got ditched, thanks.. appreciate it. now i'm stuck at home, & sober. gheeey. i do not want to be home right now.