Had a long conversation with Jesse tonight.....made my heart hurt a little bit, okay alot. He has some lingering issues regarding my past with AJ; I can't blame him.....but it just makes me feel that AJ is yet again succeeding in taking away something that is important to me! I hate him sooo much, if he ruins this for me I will never forgive him ( Read more... )

Well I haven't posted in a very long time..... mostly because I have been really busy, with Jesse mostly. Things have been going really well between us, and my heart swells everytime I think about him. I love him and that surprised me, I realized after we offically got together that I feel in love with him a while ago I just didn't want to admit ( Read more... )

Well, things are actually starting to look up.  Though things are still very confusing in the AJ department, I am actually having fun with the prospect of finding someone new.  Although all the guys that have approached me as of late have been around the age of 22, an ego boost to say the least.

On a different note my parents are the best ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in a while, mostly due to the fact that I haven't really felt like it. I don't really have much to post other than I am not looking forward to my birthday. I am not dreading getting older as much I am just coming to accept the fact that I am not at the point in my life I thought I would be by now, it is depressing.

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I am very sad today...my favorite kitty passed :( Whiskers was such an a amazing cat, my heart hurts just thinking about the fact that she won't be there when I go home anymore. I am heartbroken.

Had major drama for Michelle's birthday last night. Ran around like a chicken with my head cut off getting all the food and what not for the party. ( Read more... )

Well today is the first Valentine's Day in 9 years that I haven't spent with AJ.....not such a happy camper. Some days I really feel that I am over the whole situation and ready to move on, and then others I wake up in bed alone yet again and all I want to do is cry. It is very hard to accept the fact that I am alone. I am not lonely per say, just ( Read more... )

Haven't posted in a few days mostly due to the fact that I have nothing of real substance to post ;) I spent this last week down in San Diego due to the jaw situation....this has not been fun :( I have to wear these splints 24 hours a day, a day time one and a night time one. They make me look and sound like a retard.....not my best image let me ( Read more... )

Well this was just a lazy sunday :) The highlight of my day today was going to subway and getting dinner! Yes, Yes I know I lead an exciting life ;) Spent the day lounging in bed and enjoyed it thoroughly. The awesome thing about living alone is I can eat in bed and no one is there to complain about it. Though the converse is true as well, if I get ( Read more... )

I feel like craphola! My head is pounding, my nose is stuffy and my tum tum hurts :( I hate being sick, poo! I am going to crawl into bed with a book, drink my tea and just enjoy the goodness that is my wonderfully comfortable bed!!

Had a lovely conversation with Ms. Nali last night.... :) I am way feeling yuck this morning though....my headache just won't quit and now I am all stuffy from a cold too....it just keeps getting better and better let me tell you! AJ called this morning, he his miserable and it just hurts my heart to listen to his angst, but my compassion level is ( Read more... )