WOW!!! I can't believe it's been so long since I've updated!!! It seems like forever!! WELL....A LOT of things have happened since July. THINGS for the good. Almost 4 months ago, Allen decided to stay with me. Things have been so wonderful. I think we have both changed in a sense for the good. Although it still, by ALL means, does NOT excuse what ( Read more... )

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5 DAYS UNTIL DEALS GAP!

10 DAYS UNTIL DEALS GAP!

I HATE HAPPY COUPLES! YOU ALL MAKE ME WANT TO PUKE!

14 DAY UNTIL THE GAP!

First off:  HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my brother ADAM! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO! I LOVE YOU!

For the past three months my life has been in shambles for stupid reasons. I know I'm not easy to live with and I know I'm not your everyday Martha Stewart/Suzie Homemaker type....My question is...Why can't my uncondional love be enough? I'm not the ( Read more... )

17 DAYS until Deals Gap North Carolina/Tennessee

I hate not feeling in control of my own life. Right now, Allen has his and my future in his hands. And I can't do a damn thing about it. I could, but I have already tried the latter and I just can't bring myself to do it. At least, not in this point in time. Most people think I'm being stupid. But ( Read more... )

21 days until I leave for Deal's Gap, North Carolina!!!

Well...Things were going well. There was a set back that hopefully will get straightened out. I can't explain the emotional and mental stress I have been experiencing. I'm tired. And I'm not sure how much longer I can hold on to hope. The hurt is now turning me angry. The rage I feel is ( Read more... )

Thing are FINALLY looking up for the better! Information has been passed our way...And let me tell you a huge weight has been lifted. Not only from my shoulders, but from Allen's. All I will say is...KARMA HAS BIT HIM IN THE ASS!!!!! YES! *throws confetti*

As far as him and I are concerned, things are better. :)

Sooooo....I'm a little nervous right now. Allen and I talked on the phone a bit last night while he was at work. I guess it was good, because we didn't fight or argue. Whether we got something accomplished, I highly doubt it. He asked me if I was goingto pick up Breezy from pre-school today. I said, "Yes." He then sprang on me that he would like to ( Read more... )

Last night was another blow out. I think it was the worst one yet. I've really got to learn to keep my mouth shut. But after the things that went on yesterday, it just built up and I exploded. Everything I said MADE sense. Everything I bitched and complained about was relavent. But I'm just supposed to sit on the back burner and wait. And the ( Read more... )