So, once again I find myself in a quandary. Do I ( Read more... )

fuck the woe-is-me bullshit.

baby, i'm ready to find myself. and hey, if i find myself on top of a hot guy... all the better.

my heart was never your to break and yet
it lies in pieces at my feet.
the memory of you, a taste
of old blood and clover honey stings
these lips that praise
once spilled from. you -
an ache - a burning in
the crowded hallways of my mind and i
still
cannot find the strength
to
spare
myself.

I don't think I've seen a sadder movie than "Brokeback Mountain" in a long time. I bought it at Costco mostly because it was $8 and I have a serious thing for Jake Gyllenhaal, but I didn't expect to find it so profound.

I think it really speaks to anyone who's ever loved someone they can't have.

I feel like I've been holding my breath for days.

Please, please tell me you want me as much as I want you. Tell me this is the right thing for me to be feeling, just because it's the truth. It hurts and it's scary and worrisome, but it's honest and I don't know what else to do.

Ugh, just fucking shoot me now.

Sometimes you gotta just roll with it, let things unfold how they're supposed to.

Especially when we've both known for so long exactly how things are going to unfold.

If I wasn't so exhausted, I'd be giddy.

...And this is totally one of those times ( Read more... )

Me? Yeah, totally losing it. Again. (Or maybe still?)

Just thought you should know.

Not that I think you still care or anything...

>>>>Sometimes I think I exist just to ache for you<<<<

That is all.

I was in the hospital again Friday for most of Friday evening, and I've been stuck at home on orders of bed rest at least until tomorrow morning, and possibly longer... (Not that I have any intention of missing work and letting my illness win again)...

Being chronically ill sucks.

Sarahphim.... when are you coming home to AZ? I just got a message from Linza that she'll be in town this weekend and she wants to do the lunch-and-shopping thing. Besides, I haven't seen you in forever and I want to!