have you ever laughed so hard you started crying... and then you realized you weren't amused at all, and you couldn't stop crying ( Read more... )

and tomorrow, school shall start again. i swear, december and my degree cannot come soon enough.

but hey, maybe i'll meet a hot guy or something. that would be nice.

in other news, my mouth hurts alot. damn dental work. but i'm in my happy vicodin haze, so i'm calm for the time being.

for anyone who has any idea of what i've been dealing with recently, here's a song with an appropriate amount of rage and snarkiness:

You wanna make me sick;
You wanna lick my wounds,
Don’t you, baby?
You want the badge of honour when you save my hide
But you’re the one in the way
Of the day of doom, baby
If you need my shame to reclaim your ( Read more... )

* lose ten pounds. diets give me the structure the rest of my life lacks ( Read more... )

since i'm going to be insanely busy over the next couple of days, allow me to take this opportunity to extend best holiday wishes to all of you. merry christmas, everyone!

i need bamboo club and coffee with the girls, asap. life is just too fucking stressful. i need to be amongst friends, the ones who love me even though they're well aware of how unbelievably fucked up i am.

"i'm either so sick in the head i need to be bled dry to quit, or i just really used to love him... i sure hope that's it."

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so maybe this really is the ideal situation. commitment without obligations. maybe this will all end up crashing and burning, but it's alright for now.

i miss my friends. sarahphim, come home soon!

i think, deep down, i must enjoy my misery to some degree. if i didn't, why would i keep falling in love with all the wrong guys? it seems like i have this abnormal attraction to guys who will ultimately cause me pain. i bypass the nice guys who would treat me well and go straight for the assholes who will use and abuse my fragile heart. maybe ( Read more... )

happy 21st birthday, sarahphim! i'm so lucky to have you as my best friend. i love you, girl! make today your best day ever!