It's a strange sort of wait these days. As we wait for a placement, we carry on with life as if we weren't waiting. The seasons have changed and now the year has, too, and we continue to wait. I imagine that what's happening is like a fade out effect in a film, where the colors of this scene are blending together, blurring into each other, and will ( Read more... )

Happy birthday to me! I feel a little different today, or maybe I'm just more aware of how I have been changing every day. I am stronger. I am more confident in who I am. I am growing ( Read more... )

It's fascinating to me how quickly one song can bring back one flood of memories, one palette of colors that begin to swirl together, turning into scenes I can almost feel ( Read more... )

I've been on Zoloft for one year and I'm so thankful. That is all. :)

One little pill... once per day, around 9 AM, and I already feel better. I say, "Lord, I give this to You," put the pill on my tongue, grab my water bottle, take a sip, and swallow. Something so simple has made a big difference. The NP said that she thought I would feel better and would wonder why I hadn't tried an antidepressant sooner, and so far ( Read more... )

Today, in the midst of a global pandemic and an uphill battle with mental illness, I am celebrating 25 years of walking with the Lord Jesus. I thought all day and wondered if I would have anything profound to write here, to commemorate such a milestone in my life, but I think it's more poignant that I actually don't have much to say. Most days I ( Read more... )

Tonight someone told me about something that might happen in his life "if God allows ( Read more... )

Mandy Moore is releasing new music again. It seems fitting somehow. I read a lot about how Millenials are so nostalgic, how that's the reason for things like Disney remaking every animated film into live-action, why bands like Backstreet Boys are still recording, etc. I sit here guilty as charged. The current song is so relatable: My favorite ( Read more... )

I would much rather say that every time you make a choice you are turning the central part of you, the part of you that chooses, into something a little different from what it was before. And taking your life as a whole, with all your innumerable choices, all your life long you are slowly turning this central thing either into a heavenly creature ( Read more... )

I sit here, a couple weeks after turning 30. The days feel slow as the days are short. In more than one way it feels like I've turned a page in the story of my life into its next chapter, and I don't think it's just because of a milestone birthday. I have had some hard years- with joyful moments, and Jacob is the best part of each day- but with ( Read more... )