For the first time since I can ever remember, I have everything I need to be completely happy. My wildest dreams are coming true when I'd never even known what they consisted of.

the1 who jumps the farthest answers the fastest shoots the hardest takes the chances laughs the most makes me laugh the most says only things I care to hear doesn't give two shits what other people are doing impresses me on the regular meets all of my demands excedes my expectations is completely universal. the1 who took initiative plays the game ( Read more... )

I got some information that someone I cared deeply about a long time ago got shat on in life.... big time. Which, normally, is news I would sit back and bask in. Come to find out, I still care very, very much. &I seem to remember a message I sent to the shitter; a warning that if the shat upon wasn't taken care of, I'd fucking kill a bitch. ( Read more... )

the little glimpse of my ideal life is long gone already. he makes me so happy and makes me feel so free.... a little too free. when I have no limits or boundaries I'm sure to set myself up for complete failure in the most disasterous way. the last thing I need is for him to see me like that ever, ever again. I need someone to push me back and ( Read more... )

throughout my life, I've never chosen the guys I was friends with before things got complicated. I always pick the ones who sweep me off my feet, flirt and make me blush. what's a girl to do, right ( Read more... )

"I wonder if they'll turn it off?"

it's one am again. my mixed drink made me drowsy but there's no way in hell I could sleep now. there's an alarm clock going off in the apartment below mine; the alarm that used to keep us awake at night. there's nothing left of you here except the secrets of the room. I habitually lie in the fetal position due ( Read more... )

it's amazing how the same feeling is there when I'm with my Him.... it's the same. I feel grounded, and I feel connected. Without it, I'm disoriented and shallow. But without this feeling, I'm the queen of the entire world instead of just of his. It's strange what our choices come out to be ( Read more... )

My heart still stops when I hear that voice. I know those words were spit out about me. Strategically shouted and whispered to evoke all the stupid little memories I have about you ( Read more... )

my gums are all fat now.
fuckin' dentist.

oh, and when [you] get here for your little visit, just ignore me back. or you'll be coughing up your own head of hair for the next month.

I move out Friday. I pack tonight and tomorrow, buy a couch and shower curtain in the morning. See you this weekend.