I am super tired. I've had a bad semester. Not all of it was horrible but the majority of it was stocked with anger, sorrow, and me being heartbroken. I have never been cut up so much. Dez was brutal. School was exhausting but interesting. I am super excited for my summer to start. My last day at UTSA graduate school is June 12th ! I am kinda ( Read more... )

I am so proud of my little brother he scored a 1420 on his SAT's ! yay. He sent out his scores to various universities and I was so happy to hear that PAN-AM is not one of them! The situation at home isn't getting any better but I hope that my sister starts to realize what she needs to do ( Read more... )

Why do I complicate my life? I just don't understand why I do certain things. I know I want to protect myself, I know that I don't want to hurt again or anymore...but then I just drive myself crazy with analyzing everything. It's what I do, it's how I was made. So then why can't I learn to just walk away. I don't regret anything, I just know ( Read more... )

So much has changed...I dated Desmond for awhile...which was an adventure in itself. Everything was great when we started off but then after Christmas...something changed and he wasn't the same. My anger became a major issue because we started to have more arguments. It's hard for me to let certain things go such as...asking me to rely on you ( Read more... )

This is my last semester at OLLU. I am done in May. I would have graduated last year but I gave myself an extension because I was not ready. I had way to much going on with school and John. I fucking hate him... He is by far the biggest waste of my time. He was so two faced. I tried, I tried so hard to make things work and to fix all our ( Read more... )

school started...I had a great summer, we had our first apartment..it was awesome!!!!! we had lots of parties and lots of fun times. we went to lots of concerts and john turned 22. i can't wait to turn 21 already!! we had our one year anniversary and its coming up on one and a half years...yikes! my classes are HARD. i am completely stressed out ( Read more... )

my last entry was some time ago. I am doing extremely well academically, I'm receiving A's on everything so far which is fanTASTic!! all my tests, papers, assignments...everything! On the downside I am sick from a cold or something and on Sunday I tripped down some stairs....it was funny afterwards but John's grandparents took me to the clinic for ( Read more... )

I absolutely have the best boyfriend in the world, he surprised me with a DSM!! i love him. My vacation was absolutely better then i expected. I thought that it would include a lot of arguing and frustration...lucky me, that didn't happen. I also asked john to get his own dorm room this coming semester because living with him made our relationship ( Read more... )

ACL was a good experience. I had fun expect for the huge dust cloud that invaided my lungs and now i have to take medicine. bummer. but it makes me feel better cause john's taking care of me. my sister couldn't attend so i called her and let her listen ... she was happy. i was happy.

( ..its all part of my master plan.. )

this is hilarious i have john watching the style channel, lol.....my parents are better!!! i hope my sister comes to SA.... john wants to got to my house for christmas...yay...its so strange but i cannot bare to be away from him for too long...i did my toes today..! and i added a painting to our wall over our bed, i painted it...my inspiration was ( Read more... )