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will extrapulate outline later but basically:
0 fred email
1 vacation
2 evan
a changed like me
b call
3 ward
4 theories
a young
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Acceptance
This week in group we are working on radical acceptance. I was dreading this unit for weeks. I know that I don't really accept everything that happened and wasn't exactly looking forward to having to do so but I was wrong about part of it ( Read more... ) -
Six Months
Today marks six months, 184 days, since I spoke to Evan. Longest six months of my life. It's felt like years.
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Valentine's Day
Today is the first holiday of my life I didn't get a stuff animal. I always wanted that to be Evan. You know? It meant so much to me, I wanted it to be from him as we had our life together ( Read more... ) -
Locket
Most people don't really know this. In fact I doubt that even Evan knows about this though he might ( Read more... ) -
Older
Daniel actually went through and read all of the emails between me and Fred and his comment was that I seemed older in them. I was thinking about that recently. My old therapist said at one point that it was as if I just had decided I didn't want to enter in the adult world. Anyone remember one of the primary reasons I broke things off with Fred? I ( Read more... ) -
The Emails The Collection of Emails from Fred
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From: Serenity Smiles To: sunrays118@aol.com ( Read more... ) -
That was the day
368 days ago that was how I started a post that possibly changed my entire future. January 19th, 2010 ( Read more... ) -
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I got an REI catalogue in the post box two days ago. I had such trouble getting one sent to me. Evan seemed the only one who could. Obviously I wondered. A nice little gesture ( Read more... ) -
Daniels Dream
The dream started off where I thought I was going to go on an amusement park ride, but as I walked through the path to the ride, I realized I was in the Kabbalah tree of life and that I was actually dead. The Kabbalah, among other things, describes the path by which you ascend through Heaven after you die. And one of the places you go is a place ( Read more... )