Today was my last practice of collegiate rifle. It was bittersweet. I'm ready for something new in my life, but it is always hard to let go of the familiar.It kind of hit me like a ton of bricks as I packed my stuff and turned off the lights to leave. I will never shoot on that range again. Heck, knowing me, I probably won't be down there again ( Read more... )

Happy Valentine's Day everyone! I hope it was as special as mine :). Love you all.

After a most unfortunate burning of bridges...I looked back on my time here at BSC, as it is fleeting quickly.( Read more... )

He's hurting and there is nothing I can do to stop it. It kills me to see him hurt. Feels like my whole world is being ripped apart, and all I can do is stand by and watch it happen. It's so odd to me how I internalize his pain. I'd much rather hurt myself than to watch him hurting, and all I can do is hold him. At the same time, I kind of feel ( Read more... )

My biological clock is going off. I don't know why. I'm not that old, I have plenty of times to have kids. But I want one now. Weird thing is...I'm not all that ready to be married. Though that wouldnt be totally horrible. I really like my boy a lot..we'll see what happens. But all at the same time I know I'm not ready for all that. I have to get a ( Read more... )

It's quite a mystery. It's a mystery that I don't feel like uncovering right now. Right now I feel ok with just where we are. We have fun together and we hate being apart. If love comes out of this then I think that will be ok, and if it doesn't, I'm pretty sure I'll be ok with that too. I just enjoy hanging out and being friends. A close friends ( Read more... )

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Christmas without Pop is awkward. Hell life without him is awkward. My retarded aunt(I'm not being mean..she really is) has moved in down there and is treating it more like her house than my grandmothers. It's Granny's house...damnit. I have never felt less at home in my entire life. I grew up in that house, and now I feel like a stranger in it. ( Read more... )

So my one and only final was on Thursday. I went to work on Wednesday (took Katie's spot). When I felt like studying, the phone kept ringing off the hook and I could have no peace. With two hours to go the phone got eerrily quiet, but I of course had no will to study at that point. I got off at 10 and proceeded to my room, where I flipped through ( Read more... )

Just when I think he can't hurt me anymore. He finds a way to completely devastate me. But I've finally gotten it. I'm THAT dumb girl. It's so easy to see that you're friends are dating bastards, but you never think the guy you are with can be one. But I got it. He is a Grade A Bastard. I feel so used and so vulnerable right now. On top of other ( Read more... )