two night in a row I've beenhaving strange dreams.

it started at some sort of gathering.  It was for some obscure religious group that had recently been founded.  Some slightly twisted version of christianity.  I was there because my Granny and my two aunts were both there and I'd come along for the ride.  there was a group of maybe thirty people ( Read more... )

i looked at my lj profile for the first time in a couple years today.  apparently the last time i changed it was right after i moved to PA.  I don't think I'm quite as angsty now as I was then, at least not usually.  Then I kept expecting everyone to be rushing up to visit me.  I don't really expect anyone to come out to CA at least not for a long ( Read more... )

I am a basket case and a drama queen.  I alternately bitch and moan because i just want all these guys to just leave me alone, and then get all upset when I'm not getting any attention ( Read more... )

I dreamed last night that i was getting married.  To a woman.  And i was getting cold feet and didn't show up until an hour and a half late, but everyone was still there and waiting and just happy that i'd finally come.  I knew all along who i was getting married to, but i didn't really realize it until i was face to face with her.  And then in the ( Read more... )

I have the strange urge to do something to change my appearance.  Like dye my hair or get a tattoo.  and as impulsive as the urge is, i know that i wouldn't be able to make up my mind on exactly what i'd want it to be.  Would I rather go redhead, or a dark red-brown?  Would I want a dragon or something less cliche?  I actually think that it's more ( Read more... )

I have the strange and unexpected urge to update my livejournal.  So here I am ( Read more... )

It is 4 am.  there are people standing outside my window carrying on a conversation.  I live in california where it never gets below 50 degreess.  There is no insulation.  If I was interested I could follow every word.

I am really tempted to open the window and tell the to shut the fuck up and go to bed.

Here I am!  in my dorm.  my roommate is nice.  the other one hasn't shown up yet ( Read more... )

 Another dream that will never come true
just to compliment the sorrow
Another life that I've taken from you
a gift to add on to your pain and suffering
Another truth you can never believe
has crippled you completely
All the cries you're beginning to hear
trapped in you mind and the noise is deafening

Let me enlighten you
This is the way I pray

Living just ( Read more... )

 I have the urge to post a song that somehow sums up my life right now but can't seem to find one ( Read more... )