i dont think i can do it anymore. It should be as easy as either you love someone or you dont, and i do, i really do. I just cant deal with all that comes with it anymore. i told myself after my last disaster (boyfriend) that i would only do something or be with someone who was exactly what i wanted. I dont want to have to change my plans or my ( Read more... )

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i dont want to be here anymore

I have decided today that even though I complain about being a grown up I have come to accept it and appreciate it. I appreciate the fact that I am even still here. Some people arent lucky enough to see their 5th birthday let alone their 21st and for that I am very thankful. I am not gonna lie its hard at times. Its hard realizing that you are ( Read more... )

So I finally had to do it. I dropped a class. It was really hard to realize that I had to do it but all I could think of was not getting into grad school cuz of my stupid physics grade so i did it! A lot of stress had just been relieved but I have to go thru it all over again next semester, which sux, but hopefully I will have a competent professor ( Read more... )

ok so I came home this weekend to get my mind off of a lot of things and it did just the opposite! I dont think its humanly possible for me to not be stressed out constantly and lately I have been putting that stress and frustration towards other people that dont deserve it. The littlest things will set me off lately and I retalliate by just ( Read more... )

Wow so after 12 o clock tomorrow the worst 2 weeks of my life will be over. I dont think I have ever been so stressed out before. In a way it was useful because I realized just how much I can accomplish, I am actually smarter than I think I am! (imagine that) However I am sleep deprived,cranky, depressed, u name it! Every little thing seems to set ( Read more... )

I dont even know where to begin, oh wait yes I do, I am stuck in a hell hole!! I am really regretting my decision to stay at school for the summer. Dont get me wrong I love the friends I have that are still down here but its just not the same. My family and my best friends are at home and I am pretty much on my own stuck in a job I absolutely hate ( Read more... )

I cannot stand people who try and tell me how to live my life when theres is nothing to be proud of. There are certain people who I thank God everyday that I am not as screwed up as they are! I understand some people are concerned for me, and I do appreciate that, honestly. However, I am a big girl who can make her own decisions, fix my own ( Read more... )

As an add on to my entry from the 13th, I would just like to say that without my Danielle I do not know what I would do. Kind of embarassed I didnt add her name in there, but she knows I love her!!!