shots tomorrow. for kayleigh. not for me...lol talk about some funfun. still waiting around for cihld support. this sucks. Bryan is amazing. i still need to get to work on telling people how we got engaged. lol im crappy at this. something about being a mom leaves very little time for computer and housework. lol darn? thats really what Bryan is ( Read more... )

right now i feel sick. i dont think throwing up would make me feel ne better tho. kayleighs birth father called me this after noon. he told me he wanted nothing to do with her. he would have been better off stabbing a knife through my heart. a real one instead of this pretend one thats here. i know it shouldnt matter to be. hes an asshole. he ( Read more... )

i had the most amazing weekend ever! yay!

havent updated in a while..and its about time..although ive got nothing good to say :( i wish i did tho....the zoloft has been working fine..until today..i just fell apart..i laid the crying on the bed..went into the bathroom and shut the door...slid down the wall and just cried. im so overwelmed with all this. sometimes i dont know what i was ( Read more... )

i hate days like this..moments like this..one sec. im perfectly fine and happy... .2 sec later im so down i dont know what to do....i never really knew what depression was..until now..and i dont know why im so depressed..i have lots to be happy about. but for some reason..its like my heart is on the floor..and all i want to do is cry. i wish i ( Read more... )

and my heart is broken because i dont know what to do.

i miss Tim a lot. i want him to come home right now.

so..here i was all happy and excited because my boyfriend send me flowers..and hes all the way in afghanistan...but then i figure out he sent them to another girl...wtf?! i dont care how good of friends you are..you dont send other girls flowers on v-day..am i right? im acctually really hurt by this...and its pretty much ruined what little is ( Read more... )

im in this group on facebook..called proud moms....i just read a post by a girl who is 19 and her baby was due dec 3rd...she had her nov 6th and her baby was still born. i could not imagine that. i dont know that i could go on. its hard sometimes....a lot of times...but to have lost my baby i could never see.......there would be nothing for me ( Read more... )

sometimes i just dont know how to make her stop crying!!!