this was a terrible idea...running off getting married..having another baby..all of it. was just bad. i shouldnt of done any of it. im the reject army wife..because although i knew it...i was just told by another wife in the unit that my husband is a slacker..and just in general does not give a shit he does what needs to be done and nothing more. ( Read more... )

i only have a minute..because sierra is already screaming..and ive only been gone for 5...but i dont get much time to myself...but do i have a right to be upset when the real father of my child..kayleigh...doesnt consider her his child? i mean..maybe it shouldnt matter to me..because kayleigh has Bryan. and bryan is more than willing to take care ( Read more... )

so i wanted record somewhere of my labor story..so this is where i am going to put it! so i went to my dr. appt. Monday...which was the 14th..my due date was the 13th..so im fat and overly ready to get a baby out of me...my blood pressure had been up all weekend..and i was misrable because my feet were HUGE, it was hard to walk around. so when i ( Read more... )

so i feel pretty terrible for my mom. this year has been crap for her. i did the terrible child thing and ran off and got married..and didnt tell my parents until 2 months later..so first i broke her heart by not only leaving her and my father out of something so HUGE but by not telling her. then add to it that i was pregnant again. but i was ( Read more... )

the longer hes gone..the harder it is for me to hold myself together. i need my outlet back.

so im not ready to have a baby. but i sure am tired of being pregnant. im lost. lol. i cant handle two kids. but at the same time this is awful. blah. well im going to play with my daughter while i can give her alone time still. i try to play with her lots now so that when new baby comes i dont feel as bad not being able to devote as much time to

so here i am 7 months pregnant..reading this story on cafemom from this woman who just had a baby sat. and the baby was still born. so im sitting here crying my eyes out because i could not deal with that. i mean..it was hard when my cat had kittens and 3 of them died. i could no have that happen with my child. even tho ive got my kayleigh..if i ( Read more... )

so my child is in a commercial..for like 3 sec..but still..shes on TV guys. lol go see ( Read more... )

living on post..you find out peoples business. i can not believe how many wives sleep around on their husbands while they are overseas. amazing. sicking. ugh. i love my husband.

and I realize suddenly how much ive lost touch with everything. growing up sucks. i havent been on LJ in sooo long thats its impossible for me to sit and get caught up on everyones lives. and that makes me sad. i miss being a kid. i miss being in school. i miss homework and tests and the stuff everyone else is dealing with. I am hoping to jump ( Read more... )