xanga sucks. and especially the fact that everybody and their grandma has a xanga site, i decided to make a new livejournal account. my older one had some not so nice stuff on it about people, and im going to try to change that. im not going to put something on here that i dont want people to read, because i KNOW people are going to read this. but ( Read more... )

today was pretty chill. during 3rd period there was some assembly thing about guns and violence. lame i kno, but it got me out of 3rd period.

well i think its official. kelly hates me.

kyle paige squished me and patrick together today after school in the hallway, and guess who comes walkin by..... KELLY. yea. i got pissed. then i went outside with ( Read more... )

I hung out with *him* again. Even though we don't go out right now, and last

time he broke my heart, sorta ruined the good times on the bus to NYC for me,

but I love him. I honestly havent felt the way i do about someone like i do

*him*. Since I got over what he put me through the first time, i must have a

really big heart or I have ( Read more... )

i mest it up beyond words. its finally fixed. and then my heart decides to changes its mind and feel differently. now my heart's feelings are colliding with those of my mind's feelings. and i have finally reached the feeling of nothingness,hopelessness and emptiness. i just... have to keep going. u know, surfing is like life. u may not catch that ( Read more... )

the academics arent that hard. but finding urself and ur "happy spot" is. i never thought it would be this hard. and i found out that i have a nack for screwing things up when they are at the top peak of perfection. i went surfing again today to get my mind off of it all. didnt work. i apologized to him repeatedly. i think i hurt myself more then i ( Read more... )

hey guys. im sittin here in my 3rd period journalism class. i should be writing up questions for my upcoming interviews with ever football coach in existance at gc. gawsh i am tired. really sleepy. umm i was talkin to mitchelle and OHMIGAWD april and megan and felicia gave me like the 21 questions deal. it was annoyin and i told them off. they got ( Read more... )

its over. i know its over. i feel it like some morbid magnectic energy. they have something i know it. they lie to me. "so u call him all the time now?" "o no he calls me all the time" "so u call her all the time now?" "o no she calls me all the time" LICK MY ASS SUCKERS! im so done with it. we're just friends and i want it to be that way. for ( Read more... )

i think everything is finally okay again... to some degree. i just have to crack her and then she'll tell me what she really thinks of ******. if its something i dont want to hear then it'll be a showdown. no joke i will go off, and the sad thing is... he wouldnt care.

you chew me up
and spit me out
enjoy the taste
i leave in your mouth
you look at me
i look at you
neither of us know what to do

immobilized by the thought of you
paralyzed by the sight of you
HyPnOtIzEd by the words you say
not true but i believe em anyway

i just dont know what i want anymore