I looked at some old pictures while doing some rough organizing in my My Pictures folder. A rush of nostalgia, tainted by a yearning, mixing together with current reality, produced some strange emotion that almost makes me feel a little nauseous. Sick and sad ( Read more... )

got my medical results from the family doctor and now the last thing is to get my tuberculosis test from the public health clinic ( Read more... )

waiting for medical results. nothing bad though. i'm not sick or anything ( Read more... )

back from the united states for like, a day, and from india for like, a week. i think i'm all talked-out about it, and i am confused about life in general i think. i don't really care to talk about how india was, and how different it is from north america. the real loaded question is, how have my experiences there changed me and helped me to ( Read more... )

two more days and then i'll be making my way off this continent for the first time and stepping off on the wrong side of the world. for one reason or another, mostly unclear to me, i think i'm supposed to be there ( Read more... )

I wish I knew what I was supposed to do.

still alive here ( Read more... )

Finally saw V For Vendetta today (a few hours ago actually) with A, who really insisted I spend time with him tonight. For some reason, which I probably know but haven't quite spelled out for myself yet, I feel not good. It'll probably more or less come out in the next few paragraphs in a more or less jumbled fashion ( Read more... )

Time to prove that you actually learned something this semester. Preparation time's up and if you didn't know it last night, you're certainly not going to know it now. It's gotten to the point where you're not sure if you're ready, just sure that you're sick of this and want to get it over with ( Read more... )

while waiting for the elevator up at the loft i was suddenly filled with a strong emotion. very happy and uplifted. but at the same time, with a kind of sadness that made me want to do nothing more than to sit in a corner forlornly. and then i wasn't sure what i was feeling. i think i may need a hug. or three ( Read more... )