Mourning the past... is what I'm doing this weekend... how about you?

So I am trying to finally get some work done... and I completely forgot that I used Marcus' 15 dollar Itunes card to download the new dixie chicks cd... then this song comes on... and here come the tears...

Dixie Chicks
Baby Hold On

Hey, it might never be the same
We might never live those days gone by
But we can try

Good morning
Let's kick the babies out ( Read more... )

I am feeling worst then yesterday... because I did the same thing I always do, and give in to tempation.  I want to hear about his day.. I want to help pick furniture.. I want him to want my opinion... but I want him to want me...I cant make this work.  He has to want it as bad as I do.  He has to let go of the side of the pool and try to swim.. ( Read more... )

I didn’t get much sleep last night.  I feel extremely beat up.  I feel like i am one of those girls who gets the shit kicked out of her and keeps on coming back because he really does love her... he’s just in a bad mood.  I am tired, sleepy, and disappointed.  Very disappointed.  In fact, it seems that every expectation that I had of his return is ( Read more... )

I am so fucking fed up...

I spent some time with my friends Micah and Cyndi this weekend.  It was alot of fun.. I finally got to The Pointe and had a few Martinis... and I had rasberry creamchesse french toast!! YUMMY YUM YUM!  Spending the weekend with them.. and seeing how happy they are together just reminds me of how badly I want to be happy too.  I mean.. I just want ( Read more... )

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  1. Be Stephanie.
  
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  2. Let it all bad feelings go.
  
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  3. Act as I would feel.
  
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  4. Do it now.
  
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  5. Be polite and be fair.
  

I feel so sad today.  I am trying hard not to feel this way... but I just feel this overwhelming feeling of sadness.  When you get back is everything back to normal?  Of course it will be....

Well thank you for asking... I have been running around like a crazy chicken head trying to get work done and not go insane... I'm not sure it working yet, but I will let you know!

I am so unhappy right now... if I can just get thru this day I will drink myself stupid tonight.