I've nearly
finally finished
this
10 year old project

10 years of gaps and poetry
10 years of gaps in poetry

he asked me -
during our 26 hour friendship
if I'd ever finish this book

my beer buzzy response was surely more poetic
before it was audible

but

I'd like to thank him
for helping me
finish

(you can ignore me
and forget about it

you can ignore me
and feel guilty about it

or you can grow a pair
and embrace it)

I caught him out of rock star mode!

he was real
silly and sweet

he finally let it slip out
he's glad he met me

more of a woman
to men
and women
that love *love* love
women
more of a woman
to those
who know
what a woman is

more passion
more
laughter
comfort
beauty
rage
warmth

more more
in
a woman
with more
of herself
to give

nature
colored
just slightly
outside of the lines

slightly just enough
to create
his crookedly perfect
perfectly crooked

special

pink lips

he knew me

loved me

hated me

at 19.

I wonder what
he'd feel
for me
at 30.

I'm better and worse Johnnie.

You're probably only better...
(and your wife?)

I want to write a poem

the entire poem will be:

do you remember?
do you remember?
do you remember?

over and over

and over.

I knew
if I ever
got it into my head
that I
was anything less
than ugly

I would be in trouble.

You're in trouble boy.

fallen out of practice I've forgotten ( Read more... )

She doesn't.

And

that's the problem.