I feel like shit, I just have this odd feeling in the pit of my stomach like it's about to implode at any moment with out warning. I'm currently at school and I have this feeling that if I go and smoke a cigarette it will make me feel better some how... I have no idea what I'm gonna do after school today, if you want to get ahold of me or somthin ( Read more... )

I fuckin hate relationships, they're a waste of time and in the end you always get hurt or get married, it seems that they are completley useless. Either way they have a negative outcome. I guess if you really love the person then the outcome is not negative, but eventually you will always get hurt. There seems to be no point to life, the only ( Read more... )

I can't belive he's gone. My grandfather died this morning... I woke up at 5:30 and couldn't get back to sleep, so I got up and got dressed. Half an hour later my grandmother called and told my dad that my grandpa was gone. The last time I saw him was nearly two years ago, December of 2003. I can't believe that I will never see his smiling ( Read more... )

Why does it seem the people you love stomp on your heart?

I'M NOT FUCKING DEAD YET!


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KURT COBAIN MOVIE MUST SEE

http://www.lastdaysmovie.com/ In other news my parents are breaking up... again. This time around its not so much that I don't want my parents to break up but I'm afraid to leave the place where I grew up... what if I never see my friends again, I'll never ( Read more... )

Currently I am sitting at home, infront of my computer and I have absolutley nothing to do, If any one wants to chill or somthin call me My cell # is 858-774-3788 I have it on me most of the time, but in the case that I don't pick up, leave a message, I'll most likley get right back to you.

I fucking hate the juvinile court system, I was scheduled for a court hearing today, so I wake up and have my dad drive me down to the court house and apparently at the end of my fucking last hearing they vacated this appointment and completly failed to mention this to me, the only fucking reason that any one was in that fucking room was me, yet ( Read more... )

NEW COMPUTER! WOOT!

I'm trying to quit smoking... its a fucking bitch. I've barley gone a day and I'm already iritable as all hell. I pitty the poor fool I finally snap on. I don't know if I'm going to be able to do this... I think I'm breaking out in hives... fuck. Maybe its because of niccotine depravation. I hope not.