I know that i write in this thing sporatically. Most of the time i actaully just forget about it. Right now i am not doing much of anything execpt for working. Wokring is no fun. I come home tired i wake up tired, and it is just no good but hopefully i will have more money than i do now ( Read more... )

Well i am bored again. So what does one do when they are bored... of course write in their journal. The weeks are winding down and i have two more weeks of school left. I can not believe i will be graduating. It seems like just yesterday me and my friends were walking across the stage at spac saying good bye and starting something that was ( Read more... )

In retrospect would you do all of the things you have done. Knowing the outcome of all of your actions would you still choose the same path in retrospect. I have made many bad choices in my life, and i wonder what it would have been like if i had done somethings differently. But then again, things could always be worse becasue who knows the kind ( Read more... )

ello again. Well i am happy to report that things are starting to look up again. Mark and i are back on the same page again, and i love him more than ever... i just wish she would go away... but anyways, i am happy things are put back together. School i s still stressing me out, i need to find a school to go to next year, but i need to find a ( Read more... )

Oh to be 10 again, where the topic of the day was nap now or later and play time inside or out side.... when your frineds all talked about boys... when your friends didn't hit on your boyfriend... oh to be 10 agiain.... i wish i could be, i would not waste it this time...... oh to be 10 when money was no issue... when school was no problem... when ( Read more... )

So it is the beginning of the semester. Fun fun. There is nothing to do. I know in a few weeks i will be bitching because there is too much to do but for now just let me bitch about something. Ok thanks ( Read more... )

I feel like blah today. Mark and i faught last night. NOthing new really from the grand pattern of things over the past month or so. I wish i knew why. Well last night was the worst it has been. Usually we just get mad but last night there was some yelling going on. I thought it was all just because we do not see each other enought but now i ( Read more... )

looking back over my semester there are many things i wish i would have changed. I wish i did not need to talk to mark as much. i wish i did some home work. I wish i was actaully motivated and wanted to do things. I wish i could say that next semester will be better but i know that it wont be. I am going to be so tired from now that i am not ( Read more... )

Happiness is something i never thought i could find. I never thought i could actually be happy. I was convinced i was born with a birth defect preventing my every ability to be be happy and express joy. I spent many years secluded and sheltered and bitter. I am not over any of those things but i am working on moving past them ( Read more... )

Hey hey i am here again. Obviously i am bored. Mary is not here again so here i sit in the library with too much work to do so i sit around and do nothing. it is easier that way. I am getting very sick of going to school everyday, and i dont know if i am going to be able to handle it next semster. I am sick of coming here and taking classes i ( Read more... )